Scaredy cat, Halloween fan

Halloween generally makes me giddy; just the thought of being whoever you want to be without having the need to explain yourself to everyone thrills me. Back then, my mother side of the family hardly ever misses a celebration on October 31st. What with all the kids in the clan, we couldn't help but make such a big deal out of it—the candies, the costumes, the games, and the staying up until midnight—it's as if Christmas came extra early!

I, however, outgrew the habit of it. Besides the obvious fact of growing up, I just found Halloween to be quite tedious, expensive, sometimes a tad bit scary, and unfortunately, now that I think of it, nonsensical. Don't get me wrong, seeing kids dressed up as their favorite characters never fails to put a smile on my face. (You should see the annual Halloween parade at Joey's school, everyone looked so adorable! Photos below.) I just don't think I'm made for it anymore. Especially after pretending to be a vampire while accompanying my cousins trick-or-treating in a nearby neighborhood a week ago, in which I scared a few little ones. Either they think I'm actually terrifying or that my costume was so hideous, useless, and shouldn't even be considered as one they couldn't bare to look at me any longer, I'm not entirely certain. But I won't take any chances; Twilight doesn't look good on me.

Okay, okay. So maybe I still do want to practice it. Well, of course I do! I just think that I somehow get carried away, tend to commit to the part just to win "Best in Costume" (given my competitive nature), and completely lose sight of the fun I should be having in the first place. I might need a little reminding once in a while, that's all. In the meantime, I shall try to think of ways to redeem myself on the Halloweens to come! My only wish is that Once Upon A Time is still running—and, with fingers crossed, just as good or even better than it already is—next year or else people may not see the relevance of me dressing up as good ol' Rumpelstiltskin. Him, or any Disney Princess, since I don't get to wear a lovely long gown as often as I hoped...